Trevor Davis

I must agree with this post in or so many ways: I too have been married for over 30 years but when asked about LOVE I don't grasp what I think others believe is Love. It is not just LOVE that I now realise is not "normal" its all feelings. I don't have a sense of humour (well not like the majority). I don't feel hatred for others no matter what they do. Also SEX is not a must in my life, at can leave it without a problem. Fantasy is the product of an imagination and I for one don't have it.

I always believed that what I saw in my MIND (Black emptiness} was what all people saw. I thought they just exaggerated what they saw and that they had really good memories for the small detail.I was always very poor in art class because it was always "Draw something" never "draw this or that" or "Draw this object". Again I thought it was a lacking that I had.When in Primary School, aged 4 or 5, the teachers told my mother that at the age of 7 I would need to go to a school for Special Needs because I just wasn't learning anything. At age 5 or 6 when we began to be taught NUMBERS I , within 6 months, went from being the class fool to being top of the class.I successfully went on to do a BSc. in Mathematics and Computing.BUT it wasn't until recently, while listening to the radio that I heard a discussion about Aphantasia and then it all fell into place, for 57 years I thought I was different, lacking a good memory. People said I didn't care about things and that was why I didn't remember the details. NOW I can hold my head up because I know it isn't me.