I love that you said “feel like living in a world of darkness”, I feel the same way, always have. I’m very strong in my faith, BY faith. I can feel when the Holy Spirit hits and can smell Him. What I struggle most is reading the Bible (or reading anything), as it’s just words to me. It’s just as useless to listen to the Bible. There are movies that are word for word biblical, and THaT helped me greatly, wish they had that for all books in the Bible.
To add, I need landmarks to get places
Me too!!! Thank goodness for GPS. With maps, I used to highly my routes and wasn’t even comfortable with that, I’d right down my turns and had to keep looking at what I wrote. Same goes with recipes, I have to reread at nearly every step.