Mike McElhany

I see no images while awake eyes closed or not but I met The Beastie Boys in a truck bed camper in the desert outside Mesa AZ. They were 4 inches tall. I think it's very possible that hallucinogens allow neural connections that we don't normally make. I also can't seem to look to the future deliberately. I have sudden involuntary memories or flashes of possible future outcomes. Oddly though, I'm more than pretty good at predicting logical outcomes to other people's decisions. Weird world man and brains are the weirdest.

I have ADHD, dysgraphia, and dyscalcula as well. Just recently learned about and that I am aphantasic. Although my experience doesn't quite mirror yours, I can't even do dialogue, So I don't write anything except internal expression. Your and my writing issue sounds like the same neural mechanism (failure?) that prevents me from applying clearly understood mathematic functions. I understand it I just can't really apply it when I put pen to paper. I can do basic stuff, but it took years of repetition. Your description sounded like the same neural disconnect.