Ingeborg

i dont see hear smell feel anything in my memory ir imagination. smells in the real world can trigger memories or emotions, songs can being up feelings of times i asdociate with them, but jnside my own head, nothing.i tet songs stuck in my head, iften just shirt riffs or phrases, but, while "know" what it sounds like, i can only hear my own internal voice trying to sing.if i try and recall how a person looks, theres just a person shaped hole in my mind - in the dark.i cant recall names, sometimes dont recall faces. i ince introduced myself to my bosses boss at a function. he had hired me a couple of months prior - Very embarrasing!

i am a jewller. i make things from gold, silver, copper. i cant "see" the finished product of what im making, but i can take inpiration from pictures, and make my own unique version of that idea. i cant draw to save myself, cant sculpt life figures in wax, but when im working a piece, my hands and mind work in harmony to find the right balance to create a pleasing shape.i have too look up how wide a ring should be, and cut sheet to that size, but i can make a ring, decide on embellishments, and place those in pleasing arrangements. often i have to see the thing in front of me, to know what i need to do. Sometimes i suffer "paralysis by analysis" because i have to choose intelectually what to do, lacking an image.