Emma Lucy

I remember visualising and also lost my ability after visualisation.. I also didn’t notice it disappearing at the time.  I subsequently used mushrooms in my adult years and was able to see behind closed eyes.  I remarked to my friend to try closing his eyes and seeing the visuals and they said they can always see visuals if they want to.  I was surprised but suddenly remembered I used o as a young child too!  In December, last year, just once I had my first non-psychedelic closed eye visuals as I was going to sleep… They were quite muted in colour and pale, but I had a visual walk around the house of a long deceased family friend whom I used to love visiting as a child… He was like a grandad to me.  It was a safe place.  I was so fascinated by this that I was unable to fall asleep because of it for hours, just kept visiting each room in the house memory/visualisation from around 32-35 years ago!  I recently read in a a book called “The Body Keeps the Score” by Bessel Van Der Kolk, https://www.besselvanderkolk.com/about/biography He studied the effects of trauma on war veterans and found that they lost the power to visualise after repeated flashbacks… He hypothesised that it was a neurological safety mechanism to protect the victim from suffering unnecessary trauma…   this makes so much sense to me.  I wonder if doing mushrooms will at some point give me back my ability to visualise, and I plan to set intentions around this if I ever take mushrooms again