Flpwer Child

To answer your quiries: After the ego death experience I went back to the normal kind of tripping as one would with just altered visual of objects infront of me, this lasted about 5 hours of just feeling good and having fun with lights leaving trails and patterns wiggling. I have not really fully comprehended the ego death could of been to due to overstimulation in parts of the brain I didn't use at all such as the visuals. So thank you for the insight, brains are very weird.The one time I didn't microdose was my first time ever trying LSD and I found sensations such as touch and hearing to be over stimulating. Overall a bad time haha. Which was 5 years ago. The visuals were just the usual ones of things wiggling or seeming brighter. Nothing too mind boggling and I was never chasing the crazy visuals because I figured it had to do with my lack of visualizing in general (which was none). the feeling I get of utter peace and tranquility was what I was going for. Prior to my first usage I have taken shrooms as well from time to time but I didn't enjoy how I wasn't in control and would couch lock similarly to having weed. The visuals were never as interesting like LSD. Plus the price tag and effects have strayed me from the usage of shrooms ever since then. Between now and then I only ever really have LSD 2-3 times a year months apart just to help boost my moods, do art and feel better about life in general. I've been familar with the substance for 5 years as well. With the particular ego death incident I figured I was seasoned enough to have a go at it by having half first rather than quartering a typical square, not really an accident more so of a curiosity to see how it compared to my usual microdosing. So I just doubled my usual intake and then completed the whole tab within an hour rather than spacing it out within 2. The ego death experience happened to me early this 2020. That's also when I learned how where I got my supply did not carefully measure out the dose on each square very well that day and that the particular one I took had an absurd amount on it from what I was used to months prior. Which explains how my friend got sick but hadn't taken psychedlics in a few months either. She has ADHD which made her feel naseua during our shared bad time but did not spiral with me thank god. The one that sent me somewhere else were allegedy "fresh" and I didn't think much of it til now. Typically I give myself 3 months between these experiences and acquire them to use right away so I never had the need to one up my last experience it was just consistent and never sat around for too long before using.I don't think that I take absurd amounts? This is presumptuous because of the people I have tripped with using the same sheet use exactly the same amount as me are people who don't have aphantasia. They claim to see things time to time but I am just straight up chilling haha. Just taking one square each is enough for the group of friends I'm with but all of them experience very differently from one another which I'm guessing is those who do it regularly and people who don't. Still I'm the odd person out with aphantasia but no one has spun out like I did with my ego death just off one square. sure multiple but not the one.Looking back at it I really should of questioned how much of this substance was I actually having at a time? usually it was fairly consistent and the pure substance I did want to ingest so I didn't worry as much. I wouldn't know how to guage just exactly how much I was taking during these times, I just know it was "great" according to others in my local area who also got a hold of the same source. If I ever find out exactly how much has been put into a blotter I'll let you know :)i wasn't too sure if I should of replied to myself or make a new comment but I did want the Original poster to see the comment not myself lol. There really should be an option to reply to certain parts of comment sections instead of just the one. So don't put me in disccusion jail.

My dreams are extremely vivid and in third person when I do dream. I can't pull up images to remember obviously but I can recall details from memory quite well but it has to be immediate after waking up. The dreams themselves don't make much sense but it is like watching a film, it is very exhausting when I do dream and somehow retain the useless details. 1 out of 10 dreams I have Im able to lucid dream for brief periods but the extent is very limited. I've always wondered if its my brain compensating from the aphantasia I have being a creative person despite the lack of visualizing I dont have. the ideas are merely conceptual and take from references ive seen.

This is just a story from my personal life and do not condone or reccomend trying this if you are inexperienced or chance it just for the "feeling of what its like to have mental imagery." Yes it is possible to unblock this aphantasia while tripping but the cost really isn't worth it from how I accidentally did it. One time I had taken too much LSD at once instead of microdosing, this resulted in an "ego death". At first I was having a wonderful time staring at patterns and enjoying the sensations of touch around me. Everything felt really cool but then the friend I was tripping with started to feel sick and thats when things took a turn. The sick friend disappeared from my sight somehow and I was left with the trip sitter. One moment I felt energized, the next I was a God. I remember sitting on the grass and looked at the moon and it was the most intensive hallucination Ive ever had. This at the time was mind boggling because I never had seen something in my imagination prior to this day and I have had psychedelics before. I could grab the moon and then "smashed it" into the ground. This was the most amazing thing ive ever seen. Multiple moons were crashing on the ground beneath me in such intricate patterns. Oddly enough it was all in greyscale but then I started to black out/lose control after my awe. I lost all control and the sober friend had to take me into his vehicle since I started yelling out of the blue. I don't recall that but its what I was told. Mostly because I had remembered being on the grass having another worldly experience before losing my mind. Time felt infinite. I'm not sure when I started regaining consciousness and remembering again but when I did the visuals did not stop. During my ego death I had started seeing myself infront of me cycling many times about random thingd and past truama I had experienced. It was a combination of the interior of the car and the visuals and sounds were disturbing, oddly still in black, grey and white. The sober friend wrapped me in a blanket as I was wigging out. after about an hour (my sober friend was trip sitting me still) I came down from this intense experience and just chilled out trying to process what I just saw and heard... since LSD doesn't exactly let you sleep but makes you really alert. I laid down inside of a house once i got a grip on reality and my friend deemed me okay to have my stimulus, I tried to google what happened to me but the letters kept bouncing so i just looked at nature photos instead. The next day I felt so much clarity and was okay. Everyone involved was okay too. Here is some information about me. I have always had aphantasia (the kind where I can't visualize at all) but it has never stopped me from dreaming vividly in color from time to time, my ability to recall my dreams is also highly unusual despite not being able to recall imagery very well. Somehow I retain a lot of useless information from my dreams but this results in being exhahsted beyond belief if I can remember the details. My experiences with psychedelics usually do not involve hallucinating things that aren't already infront of me, instead it somewhat warps what I'm looking at or the lines wiggle or the patterns dance. Still I am just seeing what I see just the feeling of being impaired, I am also very sensitive to light and sounds when I'm in this state but I do not conjure up visuals on my own. Only deviate from what I'm seeing a little bit. ex I see extra lines or colors bleed out from the lines a little. So the take away from all this is, I wonder what part of the brain aphantasia is connected to if it can soar to peaks to almost unblock it temporarily while on potent psychedelic substances. I'd also like to note I had no control of over what I was seeing during this particular ego death. usually when I'm micro dosing I have a very controlled environment which I am familiar with so I always remember and know what I'm doing. during this particular trip it was the same space I had always done it in just the psychedelic really took me on a ride. similar to shrooms where I'm the passenger not the driver and of course less intense.