I learn this very evening that I have severe multi symptom aphantasia. I’m completely blown away. I seriously didn’t know I was this different. I wanted to say that I feel for you and your condition. I have the opposite issue in that when I’m alone I have nothing, except for that constant loud verbal monologue, which send my anxiety through the roof. I have a nervous twitch where I can set still and the rocking brings more anxiety. So although opposite, I feel the pain. And on a side note I now know why typing and spelling are so hard for me. Does anyone else have a horrible time remembering which one is the b and which is the d. I get them switched all the time.