Oh my gosh! I also have tried mushrooms, mostly to see if it would help since people claim its visuals are "trippy". I was high out of my mind, but everything stayed the same visually. Do you think that maybe psychedelics rely on taking memories of images and recombining them in order to create an external visual experience? Because maybe that's why it doesn't work? I always hoped that it was like a muscle that if I worked out enough, I could eventually start seeing things. My partner nearly cried the first time I told them I don't see movies in my head if I read a book (as they can, and really find books enjoyable for that specific reason). Unfortunately, no luck. BUT I've found that a lot of my life that they rely on visualizations for, I often kind of code the experiences into information that I could pull up again? But if I'm not confronted by whatever requires the information, it doesn't really exist.