stayiana

It’s also pretty dark in my mind but I’ve never felt lonely there. I always thought that I have a good imagination cause I’ve always loved reading novels and then imagining my own stories in that world. I just prefer to see an image first and then read about it. I remember a few fantasy series where I only heard of the book serious because a tv show came out. So what I usually do is look up images of the characters and locations (not watching the tv show) and then read the books. This way I can “remember” what everything looks like and it’s way easier to imagine the story in my mind. I try to use this technique as much as possible also in other aspects of my life. People describe me as a very creative person when I never really believed them. How could I be creative when I don’t create original content or art, I’m “just” good at copying. I struggled quite a bit with that as a teenager. Now I know that this is my talent. I don’t sit down and “magically” have this idea of a beautiful pattern. I do a lot of research and look at other people’s amazing work and then I combine it into my own pattern. I also recently found out that I’m highly sensitive. Some research suggests that highly sensitive people have an especially good imagination and aphantasics are usually not highly sensitive. I might just be the exception ;) Or there might not be enough research on the topic. To sum it all up: I realised that what can seem like a weakness is actually a strength when you look at it from the right point of view and adjust your expectations. It can take a while to find the best approach/strategy/technique for yourself but don’t give up. You will find it!