Stacey Dugan

That is an excellent description.

Hi. I believe I am a total aphant and have SDAM as well. I live in Ohio. Let me know how to get in touch with you, I am interested in participating.

I relate to this so much. I'm not totally without memories, but as one comment said, I don't remember my birthdays when I was a kid, Christmas memories are vague and I am not sure if they are real. I have a better memory of my kids birthdays, but still don't remember a lot. My kids will talk about something that happened in their childhood, and I simply don't remember it. It has always bothered me that others remember more about my life than I do. When I found about about aphantasia I knew immediately I have it, and now I'm feeling the same about SDAM. I feel that both things have had a major impact on the relationships in my life. I still struggle with the fact that other people can visualize things in their heads. I am an avid reader, I never got upset about who they cast in the movie because I didn't have a picture in my head already. But I feel like I miss part of the enjoyment of reading. I also wanted to be an artist in my teen years. I was very good at looking at something and drawing it, sculpture, etc. But ask me to draw something from memory and I can't do it. I guess I'm just not at the acceptance stage yet, I'm still upset about it.