Ester Cela

Hello, a am a 52 year old woman, and I have total aphantasia (probably not aphantasia but more like hypo-hypo-phantasia, as I can sometime conjure up images like ghosts or shadows of what I'm thinking about). It was no big deal for me at all as I thought everyone was like me, though it does finally explain an old fascination on mine about how the heck anyone could possibly do an identikit in police films!!! I wondered for years whether I might be on the autistic spectrum or have a personality disorder, because I just don't feel things as strongly as others, but I guess this actually explains it rather well: if I can't remember what my dog looked like, or the emotions that I felt when I was with him, it will just be that much easier to get over him when he passes. Funny fact: I have tinnitus, but I don't mind it at all, which always fascinates people as it's supposed to be so irritating: I guess it's just because there is now finally something to fill out my empty head! :-)