Sandy K

Gosh, I can really relate to this.

I always thought I wasn't trying hard enough, in various personal development training courses the facilitators have told me that I must have the capacity to visualise because I dream in colour. No matter how hard I've tried or how much I've practiced I just have an inner blank screen. I can 'see' stuff but never as an image, I just kind of know it's there and can describe and recognise it. My memories are formed of feelings and facts, no images. It's why my photos are so precious to me as they are my visual memory. I've had early trauma (PTSD but with emotional flashbacks rather than visual ones) and have low self esteem, the help I've been offered to counter these is very reliant on the ability to visualise. It's such a relief to discover others experience the world in this way too, and that these differences are finally being looked into to hopefully find more effective treatments.