Paul Hickingbotham

Lorilana in my experience of Aphantasia this is totally normal and expected. I find it difficult to show emotion when I cannot visualise people in my mind. Although I have lots of empathy and love for those close to me. I carry pictures with me and when I look at these the emotion becomes strong, or if those dear to me show me pictures of people close to them they may have lost I find myself crying. it doesn’t make you or I a bad person, just fellow Aphants 

I never knew I had Aphantasia until I turned 50, I’d always assumed ‘counting sheep’ to be a figurative saying and was just the concept of giving you something to count to get to sleep (I could never get to sleep counting). The way I discovered that I had aphantasia is my son has it too and had researched why he couldn’t visualise, and found out about the condition. He asked the family if they could visualise and everyone laughed and said of course, except me, it was a hallelujah moment and made so much more sense to my life and feelings.