Nicolette Bidwell

This is weirdly well timed, as I took Psychedelics for the first time the past Saturday. I definitely didn't see anything that wasn't there, but when my eyes were open the world around me was shifting, the colours were vivid, shapes were bending and moving. When I closed my eyes I still saw black. It was a really fun experience, albeit quite intense, everything looked like it was in HD and was vibrating, I felt like I was sinking and in this state of flux. However, no matter how hard I tried I couldn't see things that were not there. So potentially that is due to my lack of being able to visualise. I've never enjoyed weed, it always makes me feel sleepy and light headed and I'm not sure if that's due to being an Aphant or not. I've only recently reaslised I have aphantasia and it's been a lot to get my head around, I feel as if I am missing out on something which sounds like an amazing ability to have, almost as if I have a disability of sorts. If you have any advice on how you've been able to come to terms with this or even turn it into a positive would be really helpful?