Michele Andrieu

I found out I had Aphantasia when I saw someone talking about it on tiktok. I was shocked! I didn't know people could actually "see" images when they closed their eyes. I am 57 years old and just now finding out that I am the different one. I am the one that only sees blackness when I close my eyes. I am devastated. I was ok when I didn't know that I had no mind's eye, but now that I know I am trying to wrap my head around it. I wish there was a therapy or something to help develop your mind's eye. My parents are both deceased so I can't ask them, but my sister does not have Aphantasia and she thinks I am crazy because she doesn't understand why I can't see anything when I close my eyes. She says she can actually picture my great grandmother's kitchen and still conjur up the feeling sitting on her lap. She can see my late Father's face, hear his voice and laughter. I am so jealous, I have nothing just black silence.