Mia Venetrix

For me, I can picture Vividly whatever ball I decide, being pushed by whoever, wearing whatever and on whatever kind of table, but I have to consciously Choose each one, otherwise it keeps flipping between all possible options for the concept I am picturing. for instance, take trying to draw an apple? simple enough, all apples look similar...but halfway through the drawing there is a bite out of the apple, now its a pie, maybe its still on the tree? or its rotten and got a worm sticking out of it. and trying to colour it is the worst because nothing Looks right until I decide Exactly what colours are Supposed to be where and set in stone what kind of apple it is because its impossible to capture the concept of All apples. another is a lake scene, just picturing waves lapping at the shore of a forested lake...but sometimes its winter, or there is a mountain in the background. oop there's a fish I have to hold onto each detail that i want to remain constant, and constantly repeat them until the image is solidified...and hope it doesn't slip