Danny Throgmartin

I have suspected that I had memory problems from a young child. I am 77 years old. As a child I didn't worry about the fact that I couldn't count sheep for example. I couldn't visualize when I tried. I could not remember the names of things. However I did very well on multiple choice tests, where the answer was visible among the choices. I also did well on test where I needed to describe a system such as how an automobile engine works. Or what are the relationships between Stellar objects in terms of mass, etc. It seems my entire conscious life I have only talked to myself and tried to describe what my subconscious was experiencing. I have found that I can attach to this subconscious information but I will be in a daydream state in consciousness, totally disconnected from reality which has proven to be dangerous, extreme tunnel vision. while creating art I find I enjoy being and creating in that daydream state. Playing music is similar. I get lost in patterns of improvising. I find I can remember names of people and things better when I relax on the question and don't try to see an image. The answer just comes to me. I have found many unique advantages to being isolated from visual memory. I can use in Art, Music etc.